Fairness does not and never will exist.

2012, pshk i don't give a damn about what they say, it does not make any sense to me that it will be the end of the world soon. More non sense is why in the same year when i am supposed to be enjoying alcohol legally, clubs and all the good stuff. Right? Dumb asses.

So much things in my mind, unraveling them seems impossible though. I find it hard to sort them out, when i don't even try hard enough. Unfairness is the only thing i can think of that can summarize everything i have in the back of my head. Why is there such thing as CALAMITY, life itself has its own profound struggles, so why such invincible storms have to kill people for who knows whatever reason. I feel sorry for the ambivalence millions of courageous Filipinos have to encounter, even the Samoans with their surprising tsunami.

At one point every time, I come across with the idea that I might be suffering from depression, but there is not enough proof to support my hypothesis. I find myself seeking for attention, for that unknown company i yearn for, i don't know. I manage to stay strong, but until when? I dont know, who can tell me that, I know I can but would i be able to last til my expiration date with this once in a life time deal or temporary entity in this world full of liars, cheaters, backstabbers, plastics, hypocrites, lovers, learners, fuckers, bitches, teachers, extremists, gamblers, and what not. Tell me, dare to explain, how about the people who died accidentally? were they given a fair shot in life like us alive people? why did they have to perish? No fair, why was the word "fair" invented in the first place, when it's impossible. Fair = non-existent+bullshit. Even my own family did not succeed in deciphering the essence or the fundamentals alone of fairness to me.
Luckily love is to the rescue, is he? only time and patience can tell me that and i will tell you, hopefully i would be able to. Good night world. Peace is found in our hearts.