Falling harder this time.

[Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, down
Ooh (ohhh)

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, I wanna see how you lose control,

So leave it behind 'cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I'll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

So leave it behind 'cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,
(So why don't we run away)

So baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down...]

Tiger was like "awww i like this song" when he was hugging me at tea zone. He is the sweetest guy that would never ever annoy me. He's just at the right measure of sweetness.

Friday night was awesome at the park. Since i got a lil jealous of his cheerleader D, because she gave him a picture of her, i'm like "you're not going to put that in your binder ryt?" hahaha he was teasing =/ then at the end of the night..... before we kissed goodnight, he whispered "only your picture goes in my binder" damn i got the butterflies again. =D and he cant stop saying how beautiful i was that night. i hope this will go on forever.

(September 12, 2009 11+ pm.. )he became mine. <3

He was singing it when he was next to me.

I feel like I just seen the sun for the first time
You make my life bright cuz you shine
It's me and you baby, it's our time
I'm living my dream, girl cuz you mine
You got me skippin down the street
And singin love songs all out of key
I didn't smoke nothin but I feel so high
And I know why
It's a love thing, it's got to be
Your heart's all locked and I got the key
It feels like I just won the lottery
Cuz I got my girl and she got me

You my new obsession
All I want to do
You my new obsession, girl
I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance and party tonight
I feel on top of the world wit my lady
I'm gonna rock your body all night
She makes me wanna sing

La, la la la (8x)

Oh, I can't get you out my mind
Everything you do is feelin right
Remember that way you caught my eye?
I remember that way you was walkin by
Ooh girl, watch out now
You looked at me, turned around and smiled
Gave me eyes, my heart went wild
Hypnotized, this love starts now
And how do I know you're real?
It really doesn't matter, it's the way I feel
You make me feel super like the man of steel
Got me goin stupid, pickin daffodils

You my new obsession
All I want to do
You my new obsession, girl
I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance and party tonight
I feel on top of the world wit my lady
I'm gonna rock your body all night
She makes me wanna sing

La, la la la... (etc.)

You my new obsession (5x)

All I want to do
You my new obsession, girl
I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance

Dance... (etc.)

I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance and party tonight
I feel on top of the world wit my lady
I'm gonna rock your body all night

Buhay nga naman, parang life.

Ewww, back to school tomorrow. I'm too lazy. I haven't done any homeworks. I didn't feel like doing them, and I have no intentions of doing them. The only school related stuff I did was to read my novel. I love it. I'm all into it now. 'Cause like once i start reading, I can't put the book down. It's so tempting to read more and more and more, find out what will happen soon. Tweak: Growing Up in Methamphetamine. That's the book, I have to read and finish by the end of a week any half. I'm halfway done, yeayuuh!

This dickhead just wont stop texting me, ugggh! If i only knew he'd be like this, I shouldn't have given my effin number. This is killing me. Fuckin get a life dude.

I spent most of the day with my mother dear. We ate at Mama Testa, a homemade mexican place in Hillcrest. The town of gay people. Yeeep it sure was. Gays and lesbians were everywhere, it was actually a cool place. I don't mind getting a condo in the vicinity, so maybe i will, someday of course. The restaurant was just gorgeous. Love love love it. The design was just plain nice, colorful and very cultural. The restroom was clean, and that made me love it even more. I was full, another plus! Next stop was walmart. Wandered around, as usual. Then, best buy. We didn't buy anything, haha. Then I hung out with Tiger. Fun fun fun. Mocha frappuccino was good. Shit, i forgot how to spell it haha.

So like out of nowhere, my mom told me I could ask Tiger to come over for lunch or dinner sometimes. I was hella suprised. Like literally, I thought she was kidding. But she wasn't, and that made it even more weird. But she was serious, and this dinner will be taking place tomorrow night. I volunteered to cook, as long as she guides me step by step or something. I gotta admit I'm thrilled and excited, all that happy feeling mixed inside me, activating all the butterflies in my tummy.

So we'll see tomorrow =) Last night was hella fun, mom and i drove up to Redondo Beach and had dinner with few relatives. We had crab yay. Cousins are growing up hella fast. Kikaii is getting prettier and prettier. Christian is growing fast, puberty stage. Jaypee, it was the first time I met this brat, and it was his 13th birthday, too. He was hilarious. "Are you sure you're 18? 'Cause u certainly dont act like your age" Lol wow, and some people think I dont look like my age. Ive been mistaken as a 14 year old. haha no joke! I'm flattered.

Imma crash now. Good night world. School night sucks balls.

Dammmmmmn it!

What the fuck am i feeling right now?
The other day, Tiger filled me in about his past, about this one girl. His ultimate first crush/love, who knew. They have a past together, but they never went out, because this chick moved far far away and they lost contact. So we were texting, when he took forever to text me back, i wondered why. So finally he said this chick called out of nowhere, his smile was just different, and the way he sounded when he talked about her was just hmmm different. I was numb at first.
So we were texting, and he's taking forever to text back. Maybe they're talking. And i feel something weird. I thought I wont feel this crap, but i do right now.

There he finally responded, he said he was in a friend's kickback. I wonder which friend? But i ain't gon ask him, lol PRIDE chicken. He could do whatever he wants, we ain't going out anyways, so whatever. FOR TIGER: Go do what you gotta do, and i'll do what i gotta do.

New Libangan.

I found a new hobby.
Blog blog blog. I thought I would never engage with this kind of activity. So far, all that I could think of is what to post in this white box. Lol'ers.

Three-day weekend is so boring to begin with. Thank goodness, tomorrow, my mom and I will drive up to LA, to Redondo Beach and visit some relatives. I hope something exciting will come up and magically just transform my ordinary life. Well something I can deal with, of course.

I should be doing my homework tonight, but obviously I'm not and I wont. Well God only knows when I will. Maan, I'm hella cravin for a big ass cup of different flavors of ice cream right now topped with whip cream and chocolate chips or chocolate syrup. Something cold and sweet, since it's hella hot right now. Probably i'll just eat peach yogurt with sliced apples.

This be the first, and definitely not the last.

Since typing here is more convenient than writing endless words in a diary, i would try my best to fill you in everything about me and my chaotic life.
So like there's this guy Tiger (changed his name), we started talking before summer 2009 started. Everything was going well, we liked each other and we spent time together every single time we can. I was falling very fast especially when he told me "I'm falling for you every single time" (well those aren't his exact words, but something close to that.) I thought for a moment, WE WERE PERFECT. We would go to places, create memories together, eat cheesecakes and more, watch movies, and just hang out anywhere we can. We even held hands and kissed at school. When all of a sudden, last 3 days of school.. He changed! So I asked him what was up with him. "Im confused and im very complicated" those were his exact words. I wasn't, I know exactly what I wanted. So I tried to make him open up to me, try to help him understand what was our official status at that time. "We aren't going out, because we're fine like this, we like each other but we don't have to be in a relationship if that's what you're confused of" He was over-thinking things, when i was just chill and i was just living my life. Though, I was willing to give us a chance. But he totally turned his back to me and I was really hurt. I cried, but after how many weeks i was fine. I met new guys last summer, everything was fun. Then one day, Tiger, of all people texted, and confessed how much he missed me and his love for me still exists. I didn't really pay any attention to whatever he said, because then again he fuckin hurt me. School started, OMG we have 2 classes together. Geez, what were the odds? Now we're like inseparable at school. We always hang out, and now i'm the one confused. Maybe im falling for him again, but I don't want to. Im scared. I'm not the way I used to be back in the day when I can just commit myself to someone and just go with the flow. After all the experiences and mistakes, I don't wanna undergo through all that all over again. I just wish i will find the light to the right path soon, so I wont end up hurting myself or anyone.