I'd be lost in space... without you.

Lost in Space by Sitti Navarro/Lighthouse Family

I feel as if everyday is on fast-forward. Another issue of unfairness. But who is to blame, when we, ourselves, are responsible for hesitating to do certain things and make the best out of what we have. In the depths of my heart and mind, I still wish I can rewind way back when we looked more of a family, with a complete set of parents and children. Impossible. I blame myself for seeing other unimportant things than the radical changes. Big word = CHANGE, oh yes indeed. Something that i can be good at but mostly bad at. In the long run, it made me stronger that stopped the always cry-myself-to-sleep routine.

Life is hard, but I enjoy it anyways. For now I'm lost. From the subject of who, what, where, when, and how to choose. Because soon after high school, everything will be affected, i mean literally everything i got, which isn't that much at the moment. I act as if everything's fine, but everything's just against me right now. Importantly, I should put myself first before anyone else.

One thing's for sure right now, I wanna fly. I wanna get out of this place, and just let loose and travel the world.

The opportunity of going to Hong Kong changed my outlook and my perspective on everything. It's amazing how one crowded city, endless shopping, two-floored risky buses, scary drivers, curry fishballs, hot pot spareribs, 7/11 vs K-mart, club 7, Watsons vs Mannings, skyscapers, clubs/bars, loose curfew, cigarettes, vodka/tequila shots, beer, iced lemon tea, milk tea, dim sum, ghetto food places, bright lights, awesome night life, stinky tofu, the power of an octopus card, hot spots for my nikon, both nasty and pleasant restrooms, mango sago, red bean milk drink, chocolate milk, my dad's cooking, my auntie's accent, bonding time with syoti = priceless, vs shampoo, pantene conditioner, tiny apartments, bad-tempered people, second-hand smoke, new friendship, and in two weeks can dramatically affect me.

I guess I have enough time to think about what I really want to do with my life. I like to rush things, waiting is annoying but necessary. Sadly but true.

Wow I lived after a car accident. Amazing, but damn!!!!! Ughh another horrifying event, the massive earthquake in Haiti =( so sad. Take time to pray for the lost souls.